These are my last words..

Who chooses my eternity in heaven with you God, You or me?
It is impossible to anticipate His eternal plan and not be fearful of leaving my family,
I feel my time with them is so incomplete.
No one has reached into my soul and assured me
I keep saying I will know and will feel the Peace-the Plan.
I am waiting, I am waiting..
Is the greatest gift really patience?
There is no losing when you know that God has you forever
He has taught me so much in my walk on earth and now how dare I not embrace the journey, no matter the length or the depth?
Trust my child, you must!!!
My body is deteriorating and it frightens me so
But I will be whole in His presence, He promises me so..
I lay the toughest thoughts I have ever imagined at His graceful feet,
Believing He will smile me through and through with the divine answers
He has in His hands.
I lift my enormous love for Mike, Dane and Lyndee to envelope me as only family love can.
I so never knew I could love people this much. May they know, so it becomes a part of them.

spoken to Nana 10-10-09

These are my last words..

Who chooses my eternity in heaven with you God, You or me?
It is impossible to anticipate His eternal plan and not be fearful of leaving my family,
I feel my time with them is so incomplete.
No one has reached into my soul and assured me
I keep saying I will know and will feel the Peace-the Plan.
I am waiting, I am waiting..
Is the greatest gift really patience?
There is no losing when you know that God has you forever
He has taught me so much in my walk on earth and now how dare I not embrace the journey, no matter the length or the depth?
Trust my child, you must!!!
My body is deteriorating and it frightens me so
But I will be whole in His presence, He promises me so..
I lay the toughest thoughts I have ever imagined at His graceful feet,
Believing He will smile me through and through with the divine answers
He has in His hands.
I lift my enormous love for Mike, Dane and Lyndee to envelope me as only family love can.
I so never knew I could love people this much. May they know, so it becomes a part of them.

Dictated to her mom 10-7-09

One door closes and another one opens....

"Oh keep my soul and deliver me; Let me not be ashamed, for I put my trust in You. Let integrity and uprightness preserve me, for I wait on You."

- Psalm 25:20,21

I probably will not continue this blogspot now that I am done with the radiation and believe I am healed. I will have the port removed on July 3rd and a final check up. I am hoping to find a new integrative physician to do follow up exams and will continue my promise to take care of myself physically, spiritually and emotionally. Thank you all my prayer warriors for reading my blog and sharing in prayer and in my journey. I will continue adding to my original blogspot... http://desertfishinn.blogspot.com/ if you like checking up on what's happening with me :) My new job at the golf course looks like its going to require lots of prayer and patience. Perhaps I am not meant to do it? I am committed to the month of July and will ask God to lead me and guide me. He has a plan and I desire the peace He provides when I live in accordance with His will.

His Way at the Workplace

I was restless last night, my mind milling over the people/personalities at the golf course. Lord, use me to bring peace and your wisdom to my new workplace. Help me to not get sucked into bad mouthing other employees and show me how to deal with that situation in others ~ show me the higher ground.

"Whoever guards his mouth and tongue keeps his soul from troubles." - Proverbs 21:23

New Found Energy

I had a wonderful day today! I am definitely healing! I took Zander for an early walk and watched the sunrise out in the desert, I worked in the pro shop for a couple hours, got a lot done around the house, and even chipped golf balls up and down the 18th fairway this evening. Hallelujia!

Happy Birthday, Lyndee Michelle !

Today is Lyndee's 21st birthday. I wish I could hug her in person, she gives the best hugs. She is in Bend today sharing her day with friends. I am sure she will brighten the day of whoever she is with ~ somehow she always seems to do that.

He Knows

"For your Father in heaven knows the things you have need of

before you ask Him." - Matthew 6:8

With this sunset came a healing peace for me tonight. A neighbor brought me over dinner and I feel God around me and working through people to comfort me. It was a restful and healing day and I am thankful.