To my beloved prayer warriors,... I want you to know~ without a doubt~ that you needn't worry about me only to pray with me and grow with me as I continue on my path to wellness and wholeness. As you all know, I journal every day and with renewed commitment since I found this tumor back in December. Last night I decided to share my prayer journal with you in hopes it will reveal a part of me. I am going to start by sharing four journal entries, written on the 19th of the month, from December until now, in hopes you will see God growing me. (Tons more happened between these writings, but I won't bore you with them all!)
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December 19, 2006...
"Today's message from Lucille Fern Sollenberger is titled 'Nothing is Impossible'. She challenged me to 'pray for faith to submit to God's will, whatever the cost.' Thank you, Lord, for Oswald Chambers and LFS, who lead me and teach me about You. I am going to take baby steps in dealing with this ailment, always seeking peace from you in every step. You will reveal to me what I need to know when I need to know it. I am putting this little body I have been blessed with entirely in Your loving hands. I am committed to taking care of it both nutritionally and spiritually and letting go of those things that cause my internal anguish. I am giving them to you, laying them at Your feet - by Your grace- so You can use me. I do not want to be a contradiction in what I say and what I do. Hold my hand, Lord, walk with me, dry my tears, fill me with Your knowledge, love, wellness. Thank You for the journey."
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January 19, 2007
"Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O Lord, my strength and my redeemer." Psalm 19:14
"The fear (awe, reverence) of the Lord leads to life, And he who has it will abide in satisfaction: He will not be visited with evil" Proverbs 19:23
"Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage." Galatians 5:1
"I pray this morning for confidence in my healing. Please Lord, remove my aches, grant me energy and guide my wellness."
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February 19, 2007
"Yesterday was a good day! ... filled with peace and contentedness and hope and the love of God abounded. The Sunsites Community Church was a blessing. Thank You, Lord! And then, a nice round of golf and a dinner of salmon tacos :)"
"Let Christ be magnified in your body - whether by life of death." Phil. 1:19
Take up the whole armor of God:
waist ~ truth
breastplate ~ righteousness
feet ~ gospel of peace
shield ~ faith
helmet ~ salvation
sword ~ spirit (word of God)
Pray always with perseverance ~ Speak boldly about the gospel"... - Eph. 6:11-20
"Let it be evident to everyone that your chains (afflictions) are in Christ - the circumstances of your life are for the furtherance of the gospel." Phil. 1:12 (paraphrased)
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March 19, 2007
"And all things, whatever you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive." Matt. 21:22
"(If you have faith and do not doubt) 21:21
"if you have faith ... nothing will be impossible for you." Matt. 17:20
"with God, all things are possible." Matt. 19:26
"Lord God, You have shown me that You care about every detail of our lives! It is so awesome to see events and the meeting of people be so intricately woven to produce good, Your will! I trust You to have a hand in the sale of our Inn, in my job at the golf shop, in Lyndee's life, in my wellness, in Mike's salvation... Thank You, Lord!"
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April 19, 2007
"Now acquaint yourself with Him, and be at peace." Job 22:21
"He stirs up the sea with His power, And by His understanding He breaks up the storm. By His spirit He adorned the heavens. His hand pierced the fleeing serpent. Indeed these are the mere edges of His ways, And how small a whisper we hear of Him! But the thunder of His power who can understand?" Job 26:11-14
"I cannot understand the power of You, my God ~ from Your whisper in my heart to the arranging of events in my life."
"For Your mercy is great above the heavens, And Your truth reaches to the clouds." Psalm 108:4
Four months ago I would have been devastated at the thought of chemo and radiation and today I say 'let's get it started - let me fight so I may live' - so I may proclaim how marvelous are Your works, how gracious is Your compassion, how faithful You are to those who seek You! my cup runneth over - with gratitude - with longing to know You even more - with a desire to be Your light - with a knowledge that YOU ARE.... with peace!
1 comment:
Dear Denise, thank you for sharing your heart and your soul during this difficult journey you have before you.
I'm alittle unlearned about using the computer so bear with me as I try and communicate on your blog web site.
You have such a beautiful spirit and a love of Gods eternal word. I can see how the Lord is using you and your witness to bring others closer to himself.
After losing my son Patrick I had no other one I could turn to to heal my broken heart and spirit but the Lord Jesus Christ. If nothing else, he shows us what is important in this life and all the rest is but mere rubbish.
I have learned that we are spirtual beings who are living in these earth suits groaning until the day of our redemption as true sons of God. Heaven is our destination and I can hardly wait!!
Rev. 3:11
"Hold on to what you have, so that no one will take your crown. To him who overcomes I will make a pillar in the temple of my God."
To fulfill our mission here on this earth he will require each one of us to abandon our own agendas and accept his agenda instead. But through it all he gives us his promises to hold onto.
Joshua 1:9
"Be strong and courageous Denise, do not be terrified do not be discouraged for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."
Please keep in touch dear one and I will continue to raise your name before our God. Gail ( Mrs. B)
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