One day just blurs into the next, I accomplish nothing, oh if I could just sleep until this chapter of my life is over. I would like to say I am growing close to God and I feel His presence, that He is leading and guiding me... fact is I force myself to read my devotionals in the morning and my journalling is a line here and there and I am questioning and doubting. I am skinny, my hair is thinning and my lips are pasty. I spent 90% of my day today in bed either watching TV or sleeping, the other 10% running to the bathroom. Oh life, oh life where have you gone? Losing my positive outlook is the worst side effect of all. In my mind I know this is just a small chapter in my life and I will get through it, the rest of me is screaming this is never ending and I don't have the will or the stamina. I never have liked roller coasters... let me off Lord, please, let me off.
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