Salty :{

"There is only one way to develop spritiually, and that is by concentration on God...pay attention to the Source, and out of you will flow rivers of living water." -Oswald Chambers

I was very short with the nurse and Dr. Cohen tonight during a quick exam before my radiation treatment. I ask so many questions and I answer theirs in a tone that implies "you don't really want to know, you are just filling in the blanks.." I just am so distrusting. They are always so quick to want to perscribe things to cover symptoms. I hate the poisoning of the chemo and don't want any other chemicals in me if I can possibly avoid it. Dr. Cohen is very patient with me :) Once on the treatment table and in prayer mode I found myself anxious and regretful for my attitude and it hindered my peaceful prayer time. I know a positive attitude will assist my healing and an anxious one is counter-productive :( I would have to say that my "living water" was a bit salty tonight if it even flowed at all.... and the refining process continues....

"But no man can tame the tongue. It is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison. With it we bless our God and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in the similtude of God. Out of the same mouth proceed blessing and cursing. My brethren, these things ought not be so. Does a spring send forth fresh water and bitter from the same opening? Can a fig tree, my brethren, bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Thus no spring can yield both salt water and fresh." -James 3:8-12